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| I hate tattling... |
[25 Feb 2003|11:09pm] |
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I hate tattling...but, I just feel really weird about this:
Ashley and Derrick always do each other's homework. I mean, like, Derrick will "help" her with algebra, and she'll "help" him with English...I just found Derrick's essay on the computer, and it was the Ashley-ish version of it...
I have always been told that if it weren't for her, he'd never would've passed English since sixth grade...
I dunno, what do you think about this K.?...Hey, K., can you come over on Saturday? Derrick's gonna be working late, and the other Closers are having some sleep-over/Fifth Notes thingy at Tory's. Not that I'd wanna go there anyway... so will you spend the night PLEASE?!?!
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| Promise for Pictures |
[25 Feb 2003|09:56pm] |
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I promise that I will upload pictures of Derrick's band members and put them here. I guess that I look most like Ashley, than any of the other girls, only because we're both Latin. Which is kinda ironic because we're both Latin and both named Ashley Nicole. Actually she's Ashley Nicole, I'm Ashleigh Nikol. "Nikol" is the Hawaiian way of spelling "Nicole."
I appologize in advance for getting jealous of Ashley, Desire` (*pronounnced "Desirae/Desiree," NOT "desire."*), Kristin, and Tory. It's just that Derrick spends a lot of time with them. And at work, and with Jade. So I only get to see him when he's sleeping now...and in our 1st and 6th hours at school because I started back again. But Ashley is in those 2 hours with him too, so...
I shouldn't be jealous, should I?
Did I do the right thing in marrying him? I can't help but think that we only got married because I was pregnant...
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[24 Feb 2003|07:47pm] |
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I want to play Purple Moon, but I'm stupid, and can't figure out how to change the colour thingy...
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| A New Home |
[24 Feb 2003|03:19pm] |
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Well, here we are, in my house, finally, away from Dakota and Kenny. I couldn't take it any longer, and neither could Derr. I would've gladly accepted the jokes, if I were in better health. But I'm still sick from whatever I had, which caused me to have Jade early.
Derrick's been working so hard lately, he's gonna get sick, and un-do what he's already done. He needs to let up a bit.
My Abuela (Grandmother, in Spanish), whom I met at a nursing home, came over a few hours ago to see Jade and give her stuff. Abuela can't wait to teach Jade all about Latin heritage, and the Mayan Indians. Abuela calls Jade, "Azul," which is Spanish for "blue" because she has blue eyes.
Gotta go. Derrick's home. Bye.
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| Valentine's Day |
[14 Feb 2003|12:43pm] |
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Okay, so I'm here at K.'s with Jade (since I really don't trust Derrick to actually take care of her, like, on his own), so I'm here, and, she's been such a good lil baby ::turns to K.::, righty K.?
*Most definitely! Jade is my favorite little kid!*
Mine too!
*I would hope so.*
True.
Anyway, I'm here since OV is on mid-winter break, and I had to get out of the house. I'll be spending the other 3 days with Derrick, and that even is a lot sincn he never LEAVES ME ALONE!!!!! Okay, I know I shouldn't be complaining, but he seriously needs to let me have room to breathe...even though I had been hoping that he and I would do something a little romantic, seeing that today is Valentine's Day, but I know that he doesn't have anything planned, and I don't even think he has a card either. I at least got him a card. Yesterday. At the mall. At 10:30 at night. With Mrs. P. And I even got him something for tonight. And wrapped it today, and K.'s house.
*You shouldn't have gotten him anything Ash!*
K., he's my husband, I think that there's a law stating I had to get him something today.
*He didn't get you anything.*
You said that you'd talk to him about that.
*I did!*
Suuuuuuuure....if he thinks we're sleeping together tonight, he's crazier than I thought.
*::laughs::*
Jade's sleeping right?
*No.*
She's being quiet.
*She's a good baby.*
Thankfully. I don't have to worry about her as much I have to worry about Derrick.
*That's sad.*
Are you doubting my actions in marrying him?
*::grimmences:: I dunno Ashley!*
I am. I'm not. No, it was a good thing.
*Yeah.*
OKay, let's get off this sbject...Jeanne better've told him to go out and buy me something before I get back.
*I bet he did.*
Oooh! I want a ring!
*::sarcastically:: When don't you?*
Funny. ::laughs:: Hey, I'ma girl, jewlery is good.
*Tell him to buy me one!*
He better've bought me one first...-
*After all the torture he's put me through?! I deserve it!*
I went through a 7 hour labor! I deserve a ring too!
*::laughs::*
::laughs:: Do you think he forgot about Jade? Okay, so there's not much someone could get a week old baby, but still, it's his daughter (now if that didn't sound WEIRD!).
*Derrick having a daughter? Yeah, that sounds weird.*
Oh, okay, I gotta go get my (precious) baby...she's crying...feel free to write whatever okay?
*OKay* wow I have the power..I am in total control, no really though, all this has been crazy, with Ash marrying derr, and then well Jade..its been wild, and you know the suckiest thing about this all, I recieved an hour long lecture about "NOT HAVING SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE" from my mom. But yea, she is real supportive to Ash and Derr, in fact she wishes she was able to have been here today to see Jade, she was able to come at lunch..I can see it now, she will be trainging Jade like my cousin Qwen..to love her "Aunt Janice" lol, here comes Ash*
Love her "Aunt Janice..." Of course! Maybe not her Uncle Kenny because he can be such a grudge holding jerk, but maybe he'll grown out of that soon enough. And I also hope that Dakota grows out of his "Ashley, can I wake up Derrick's baby now?!" phase so soon, because it's gonna drive me crazy.
Okay, I'm gonna go now, K. just put Jade's bottle in the microwave for me.
(Oh, I'm dissapointed because I KNOW that my boyf- er, husband, didn't get me anything for today, which really shouldn't bother me, but it does.
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| A Pic of K. and Jade |
[14 Feb 2003|11:55am] |
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K. got her pictures developed, and gave me a copy of her holding Jade when Jade was born.
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| Little brother-in-laws are soooooo annoying |
[12 Feb 2003|08:18pm] |
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Little brother-in-laws are sooooo annoying.
Let me explain: See, today Dakota's school (the private Catholic school across town) had a snow day, and he annoyed the hell out of me. "Ashley, what are you doing now?" "Ashley, can I hold Derrick's baby now?" "Ashley, I'm bored." "Ashley, Jade is crying." "Ashley, can I wake Derrick's baby up and hold her?" "Ashley..." ARUGH!!!! I was sooooo glad when Derrick got home at 2:45. And to top it all off, I had to spend the day with Derrick's aunt because Jeanne hadda work today, so she couldn't even yell at Dakota for me.
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| What the hell is he thinking now?! |
[11 Feb 2003|04:42pm] |
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Awww, I love our baby so much. The 7 hours in labor sucked some major fuckin' ass though.
Do you how many people told me that Derr was gonna leave me? I knew he wouldn't though. I knew it. Even if he stopped loving me, he wouldn't leave for Jade's sake.
Jade has gotten even more beautiful now. On the 13th she'll be a week old. And here everyone (including myself) thought I'd be pregnant on Valentine's Day.
We were thinking of asking Kenny and Tory if they'd be Jade's Godparents, but we don't really know for sure yet.
Derr wants to have 3 more kids. Stephanie Danielle/Benjiman Derrick for the 2nd, Caitlin Nicole/Zachary Taylor for the 3rd, and Mariah Michelle/Joshua Allen for the 4th or something like that. He wants them 2 years apart too. Which our parents will detest becauase if we were gonna have anymore he had/have to wait like, 6 years until we were 20. But if we do what Derrick wants, then we'll have had our last kid when we were 20. Sooo....
There we go, I can see it already:
Graduation, 2006. I'm pregnant (and showing greatly) whis our third, and we have a 4-year-old Jade and her 2-year-old brother or sister sitting in the stands, watching us graduate. And all our classmates' families whisper (when they see me): "Is she pregnant?!" And the classmate replies: "Yeah, with her and her husband's third. THey already have a 4-year-old and a 2-year-old....Slut."
Actually, it is all kind of amusing...
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| "Fat Lip" - Sum 41 (Bad pun intended) |
[11 Feb 2003|02:00pm] |
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I got my lip peirced! (See, fat lip.) Haha, yeah, I know K. Cailes peirced it for me out of boredom on Friday after school (remember, you were in trouble, so you couldn't come over?). Anyway, if anyone wants to see it, just tell me okay, cos I'm too lazy to put the picture in here as html. But anyway....
Owww, ya know what? Kenny thought that my lip ring was fake, and he pulled on it...owww.
I think my mom prefers the lip ring over Jade, and not so much that but the fact that I was pregnant in the first place.
Okay K., guess what happened yesterday. Okay, so Derrick and I were making out when Jade was sleeping (haha), and my lip ring gets caught on his lip...and of course Kenny walks in at that moment...Oh josh, I know, like pouring salt into an open wound. Haha. LoL.
The second time I was laying in bed with him (ooooooh, I know, that's a "big no-no," seeing that our parents are convinced that we "did not learn our lesson from our fist mistake yet."). Anyway, I was laying with my head in his lap, and I reached over to get Jade's blanket, and my lip ring got caught on the hem of his sweater...then of course his mom walks in...uh-huh, I'm just not having too good of luck with this lip ring am I? LoL.
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| Jade Ashley... |
[08 Feb 2003|10:12pm] |
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Yes, that's right. I had our baby. I had her on Thursday at 11:56 pm. Derrick and I are soooo happy that she's finally here.
Her name's Jade Ashley, she's 4 pounds, 9 ounces, and is 20 inches. She's so beautiful. I love her so much.
Mrs. P's been really helpful already too. Dakota wants to hold her a lot, but Derrick still doesn't trust him enough. Kenny's been holding her a lot too, which is funny considering he was the one cussing her out a week ago because she won't only change Derr and my's lives, but his too, as well as everyone else's.
I'm still really tired...labor/delivery sucked majorly...
I'm still sick too. That's why I had her early. Because I got really sick. But everyone at the house and who has came to visit has been really good and helpful.
Write later...night for now.
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| "M" is for Marriage |
[30 Sep 2002|01:26pm] |
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On the 28th, I got married. To Derrick. I know it was because I love him, but I can't help but also think that we got married because of the baby too. I know that's why. It was because of the baby - not because we love each other. I moved in with the Parkers a week ago. And Kenny's pissed 'cause he now has to share a room with Dakota. Derr and I are obviously expected to live together, and so we're turning Dakota's old room into our "1-room apartment" thing, and Mrs. P. even helped decorate it with me. But we (Derr and I) have to have seperate beds like in "I LOVE LUCY" because he and I aren't supposed to have anymore kids for at least 6 years, when we're 20. But knowning Derr like I do, I know that he's not gonna be too good with following that rule. He's gonna get us kicked out of their house. I know it.
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| Steven Seagal Rules! |
[15 Jun 2002|10:44pm] |
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STEVEN SEAGAL RULES!!!! I can now proudly boast that I own ALL of his movies...well, except for "The Glimmer Man" which my mom has ordered.
STEVEN SEAGAL RULES!!!!
I'm watching his movie, "Above The Law" right now, so, I'll write more later.
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| Yay! |
[07 Jun 2002|10:36pm] |
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Yes! No more school for 3 whole months! I wish I could be really, whoa lazy and do nothing but the whole band thing, and ride my two horses (Rain and Flame. Both are 7. They rule. Rain's a girl, Flame's a boy). And lounge around by the pool. Wait, I do get to do that. And work. ::groan:: At least my friend, Andrea ("Andi") lives on the street behind me, so I can walk over there, or she walk over here when it gets tooooo boring for me, or her, or both of us.
This means that I can see Derrick a lot more. In like, April, his parents transfered all 3 to the private school across town.
And I can sleep over more at people's houses. That always is good...
OKAY! SOMEONE NEEDS TO GET THAT STUPID POSER NAMED AVRIL FUCKIN' LAVINGE OFF OF MY TV AND RADIO!!!!!!!!
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[04 Jun 2002|01:59pm] |
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Arugh, I HATE being sick. I can't do anything or go anywhere (or, at least, I don't feel like it) because I'm sick. ::groans:: At least I didn't have to go to school.
Well, since I have a lot of time on my hands, I guess I'll tell ya about my favourite music artists.
Guys: Hanson, Def Leppard, Goo Goo Dolls, Chicago, The Rolling Stones, Beatles, Jackson 5, Lil Bow Wow, and Ja Rule. In that order for guys at least.
Girls: Michelle Branch, Mariah Carey, M2M, Ashanti, Christina Augileria, Britney Spears, Nobody's Angel.
I also like S Club 7.
Tired...sick...gonna go to sleep...
Ya'll like my icon? It's Michelle Branch! (For now)
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[03 Jun 2002|10:46pm] |
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Sorry that I haven't had time to write in here lately. I've just been soooo busy with a lotta stuff.
Band practice was soooo boring today. They practiced in Kristin's garage, as usual, but today was more boring than usual. Yeah, I probably should tell ya a little more about Derrick's band, huh?
is 16-years-old. She's 5'3," has brown hair, and blue eyes. She plays keyboard, and has some lead vocals. Her favourite colour is pink. Her and Ashley are in love with Taylor Hanson.
is 15-years-old. She's 5'7," has blonde hair, and blue eyes. She plays bass, and has some lead vocals. Her favourite colour is yellow. Her and Ashley are in love with Steve Clark.
is 14-years-old. He's 5'11," has blonde/brown hair, and hazel eyes. He plays drums, and has some lead vocals. His favourite colour is red. Yeah, he's my boyfriend.
is 14-years-old. Is 5'5," has black hair, and brown eyes, with olive skin (She's Latin-American). Ashley plays keyboard, and have some lead vocals. Her favourite colour is green.
is 13-years-old. She's 5'1," has black hair, and brown eyes (she's African-American). She plays guitar, and has some lead vocals. She has such a beautiful voice. Her favourite colour is blue. Her and Ashley are in love with Lil Bow Wow.
They are a very well rounded-band. They do everything themselves. No lie. They write their own lyrics and music, sing and play their own instruments. They've even been known to dance too. Hehe. They also can easily play all the instruments in the band too. All of them.
All of them like Hanson & Def Leppard. They have basically the same tastes in music, so that's nice.
They named their band close because they're really, really, really close friends. See, Close. And also: derriCk, ashLey, tOry, kriStin, and desire.
Question: I'm only a month late, so I have no reason to be having a whack-attack already, right? It's just no big deal....?
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| What The Hell Did I Just Do?!?! |
[18 May 2002|09:30pm] |
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No, no, no, fuckin' no.
I DID NOT JUST DO THAT!! But I guess I did, didn't I? If I keep denying it? God no, that didn't happen. This is a bad, bad, bad, very fuckin' bad dream. VERY BAD! Like, as in NOT GOOD AT ALL!
We weren't smart or responisible at ALL because....? I'll tell you, because we're fuckin' stupid. That's why! I don't wanna write it. Noooope. Why? Because I really cannot get yelled at right now. Because I know what I did was wrong.
Okay...I'll admit half-truths. And nothing more! (Maybe.)
I went over to Derrick's, as usual, so it was no big deal. Just another date there because we're still broke. Okay, so we're just hanging out there, Derrick finally convinced me to watch a Steven Seagal movie with him. We watched "Under Seige" and "Under Seige 2 - Dark Territory." They made my stomach turn! I cannot believe that he can actually watch and like those movies! But anyway, we were sitting in his room, watching those movies (okay, so he was watching them, I had my face burried in his shirt because I really can't handle that sorta thing jsut quite yet). So, then he started to reassure me, and everything, and I kissed him. It just, ya know, evolved from there.
Oh my God, I hope I'm not pregnant. I'm only 14.
Oh my God, someone help me.
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| Why? |
[17 May 2002|10:09pm] |
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Gosh, sometimes he can be so stupid and immature. Really. We were at his house, and he was like, "Would ya get me something to drink?" And I was like, "What's wrong with you?" "Nothing," Derrick replied, "I just don't feel like getting up." So I did get up, and got him something, but he was just generally being stupid today.
And to make today even better, I got detention for calling my history teacher a cone-headed, hunch-backed, goopher lookin' dinosaur. Hehe. He does look like one though.
Oh, and one of my friends is mad at me because she just moved back and found out that I'm dating Derrick. "She liked him first," "We promised we wouldn't go out with him in order to save each other's feelings from being hurt." I don't remember saying that.
At least my mom brought me to the mall today, so I could FINALLY get the M2M CD! I love them. Them, Hanson, Def Leppard, The Goo-Goo Dolls, and few other bands. I don't really like Britney, or any of them. I HATE AVRIL LAVINGE!
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| At the mall... |
[11 May 2002|08:39pm] |
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Spending the night at K's again.
I went to the mall with Derrick earlier. I bought some new jeans, and some more film for my camera. Derrick got me a necklace like the one that got broke in the fight a few days ago. (I punched some girl that called me a slut, and she punched me back, and ripped off my necklace. Dumb bitch.) It's pink and purple (my favorite colors). Oh, and the Def Leppard CD, "Hysteria" that I've been eyeing for awhile. He's so sweet.
To K: Derrick is sweet! He really is! I don't know why you don't believe me!
There was this girl around my's and Derrick's age (14) at the mall today, and she was pushing a baby in a stroller and the girl with her was saying "Oh my gawd Stace, I can't believe you brought your baby today." The girl replied with "Like I have any other choice." She glared at Derrick and me, and muttered, "F-in' show-offs." So I whispered to Derr, "F-in' slut." He started laughing, so the girl knew I said something about her, but I didn't care. She doesn't need to be rude.
K was just asked me how long I've been going with Derrick. Uh...I dunno. Like, a year? Yeah, a year. 1 year, 7 months, and 8 days. Hehe
Okay, well, Derrick just called here, so I'm gonna go.
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